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I love this song so cute! Made me smile. =)



Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it

I can see it now

Back to School

Back to school! It'll be a busy year but I'm excited could be my last year. Would be awesome. =). Its gonna be a busy year but everything seems pretty promising. I've got a pretty busy schedule but think it seems doable. Somehow I'm gonna get a social life in there too. We'll see how it goes for now this is the plan...


Sunday - Rec Center Job 1:30-4:30
Run errands; laudry/ groceries

Monday- Bike Ride 7-9
Class 11-12:15
Might add work at second job in the afternoon

Tuesday- Class 8-9:15
Swim 9:30-10:30
Class 11-3:45
Run 4-5
Rec Center Job 6-8:30

Wednesday- Practice 6:30-9
Class 11-12:15
Might add work at second job in the afternoon

Thursday- Class 8-9:15
Swim 9:30-10:30
Class 11-3:45
Run 4-5
Rec Center Job 5-7:30, only a few weeks

Friday- Practice 6:30-8:30

Saturday- Practice 8-10


And in there gonna do a few races here and there hopefully. Then going to go away a few weekends as well possibly going to visit Sean in San Diego and everything. Gonna be tough looks overwhelming but somehow working pretty well. My big challene is to be able to eat healthy while doing all this! Hopefully it works. =)

Its All About Perspective

I went to the E.R. tonight, was pretty tough to be there emotionally for the third time since April. I was trying incredibly hard to stay good spirited and joking towards the staff. They were all very helpful. I was talking to my Doctor and told her I have bad luck recently have been going to the doctor a lot. She told me I didn’t have bad luck because every time I go I turn out healthy in the end and get to keep leaving. It might sound slightly pessimistic worded the way I did but I took it as an extremely optimistic outlook. I have had a tough time recently counting the events that have happened since April and being so nervous another thing would happen. However, I’ve been fine throughout them all.

I used to see it as a twist of bad events, since April I was in a horrific car accident where fatalities normally occur in similar situations. I have dealt with seeing my little brother make an adult mistake that sent my family into turmoil. I got a crazy infection, got mistreated and ended up hooked up to an IV. Then tonight finally going to the E.R. again for the third time in an incredibly short time span. However, looking at it even written out makes it feel more manageable. The weight from all of them has been very difficult and worn on me. I have felt why me, why is this happening? But everything has turned out alright through all of this.

I am no longer going to worry about why me, this isn’t fair. I am going to focus on the positive. I survived a horrific car accident and was able to watch my close friends all be safe and none have life threatening injuries. My little brother made a mistake and my family is still healing, but no one died and a beautiful gift was given to a family that will forever change their lives and they will be forever grateful for. The infection was difficult but I made it through it and had amazing people around me who helped me through it. Tonight I caught everything early and should be good as new before school starts back up on Monday. I have also started a new job, which is very exciting and is proving to be a very positive thing to be around. My graduation date is starting to seem tangible opposed to the ambiguous outlook of I will finish eventually. I have also met an amazing man who has become my best friend. He has helped me through all of this and given me opportunities, which I never would’ve had. He makes me want to be a better person.

Looking back its all about how one looks at things. The paragraph about the positive is much longer. There were other little trivial problems that I could list, but I am done dwelling on those things. As a whole the woman is right, I am incredibly lucky to be where I am. No my life isn’t perfect, but no one’s is. I have more than I ever imagined I would have at this point in my life. I am done dwelling, I kept trying to shut the thoughts out. Instead I’m letting them out but realizing I was wrong about the way I looked at them. I am so lucky to have all that I do and I do not want to take that for granted again! I’m glad I went tonight and got to hear those short words that I really needed to move forward from all those things. Thank you.

Originally written August 26

Turning Over a New Leaf

"Life's too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people that treat you right and forget about the ones that don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. No one said it'd be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it."


Earlier today I had the intention of using this to vent out my frustration. Was hours ago. I changed my mind about it. Still have the same shit I'm dealing with, still have the same pressure, but doesn't matter now. I'm turning over a new leaf. All of it is in the past, its time to look forward to the future.

“You’re never gonna trust anybody if you sit here and dwell on the past. Can’t you see you can’t see tomorrow as long as you’re lookin’ back.” –Gary Allan

Seems to be one of the most fitting quotes I could find at the moment. Its so true. Going to be my mentality for the next few days. I have a bunch of amazing things going on in my life. Yes its not perfect but I'm done focusing on the shit. I'm ready to keep moving forward with all the great things going on! I'm going to embrace everything around me and be back to my regular self. No more bullshit and getting thrown to the side by simple little things. I let out all the real heavy ones nothings held back. Time to look to the future and find new adventures in my life.

I'm already an incredibly lucky girl, have some amazing friends, an amazing boyfriend, great place to live, cat that likes me some days. lol. I'll make it work out and be alright! I'm done being thrown to the side when things happen. No more screwing things up. Working all day tomorrow, might skip the workout then from then on going to be back to getting on top of it and enjoying life. Besides, there's so many great things about it! =)

Fourth of July Weekend!

I love the fourth of July! Its such a fun weekend. The beach, fireworks, relaxing with family. Its a blast. This year was a ton of fun.

Saturday, July 3rd ~ Started off pretty rough actually. I had a real long day at work. Then I ended up going on a ride with Sean. It was so much fun. I've been nervous to go riding together but was awesome. Gave me a much needed confidence boost before my race on the 11th. Been a rough road got real sick in there so was nice to get that confidence boost. It was also a gorgeous day too. That night we went over to the Davis' house and had an amazing dinner of ribs. Got to relax, watch the sunset over the beach and have a fun evening.

Sunday, July 4th ~ The fourth was awesome! Woke up and rode bikes to downtown Huntington Beach. Watched the parade with Sean, Mama D, Papa D, Erika and Katrina. Was a big group of the family. It was great, pretty funny, local parade. There was the craziest Avatar movie float with these little gymnast kids flipping around. So crazy! Then after we ate lunch at a restaurant near the Davis' house. Was a real good dinner. Got to spend the afternoon relaxing in the backyard on the beach. Was great. I learned to throw a football, everyone hung out outside and had a great time. Had an awesome dinner at the house, then watched a movie and fireworks. Was so cool could see so many different people setting them off. Was hard to pick one show to watch!

Monday, July 5th ~ Got to go cruising in the cars today! It was awesome. The Davis family is huge on cars. Went on a ride down PCH, we had 5 people took 3 cars. It was great got to cruise in a 'Cuda. Dunno much about it but the car is amazing! Then this evening went shopping and was the most successful its been in ages!

Cars!

My goodness I've never been a car fan but so cool! Went cruising today down PCH with my boyfriend, Sean, his brother, his brother's girlfriend and his Dad. We took 3 cars. It was such a blast! I am definitely a fan of the drives, especially in really cool cars! haha. Papa D went to the Barrett Jackson car auction the other week and kinda went nuts! This is all still new to me. But the pictures are amazing! I am learning gonna start figuring these cars out. =)